“Next to the word of God, the noble art of music is the greatest treasure in the world. It controls our thoughts, minds hearts, and spirits….a person who…does not regard music as a marvelous creation of God…does not deserve to be called a human being; he should be permitted to hear nothing but the braying of asses and the grunting of hogs.”
-MARTIN LUTHER

Well, I officially have a Kindergartner and 2nd grader. My girls are growing up so fast. I was emotionally okay until Chloe’s hair was up in pigtails and she put her huge backpack on. That Hannah Montana backpack is as big as she is! Chloe also told me, “I want to get dressed in my room so that nobody sees my privacies!”
Jordyn is “super duper” excited! She is claiming that she is going to walk to her class by herself the first day. We will see!

Time for a little “me” update. I wasn’t updating my blog or on the internet much for a while. In fact, I deleted my Myspace page (gasp!). Basically, I had been spending time trying to get my crap together. I have posted many times over the last year about a struggle with depression. I finally have gotten off of my ass and have been trying to do something about it. Blair & I started seeing counselor some months back & I started taking Lexapro. I hate medication, but have realized that if it makes me a happier person & better wife & mother then I have no choice. The history of depression & mental illness on both sides of my family is rather astounding. So, I sucked it up & I am better for it. It is still a journey but one with much less crying & anxiety.

I realize also that I needed to stop creating who I thought I was supposed to be and start discovering who I really am. I feel deep in discovery. I have been a Christian since the age of 18. Along with that, I made up all these rules & ideas of what I thought a Christian was supposed to look like & act like. I am finally at the realization that I have to be who God has specifically called Me & ONLY Me to be. I am not the cookie cutter, dress wearing, only King James Version toting Christian. I have tattoos & love rock music. I drop the “F” bomb on occasion. I like a beer every once in a while. But guess what? THAT IS OKAY. I love God! God loves me! As simple as that.

Me. For better or worse, here I am.